The Script - Dead Man Walking

The Script - Nothing

Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet

They say a few drinks will help me to forget her
But after one too many I know that I'll never
Only they can’t see where this is gonna end
They all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind, turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I’ll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they’re slurred
So I, dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing (nothing, nothing, nothing)

So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if we're face to face then she'll come to her senses
Every drunk step I take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I'm hurting, she'll take me back for sure

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind, turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I’ll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they’re slurred
So I, dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing (nothing, nothing)

She said nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Ohh, sometimes love's intoxicating
Ohh, you're coming down, your hands are shaking
When you realize there's no one waiting

Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind, turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I’ll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they’re slurred
So I, dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing (nothing, nothing)

She said nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing (nothing, nothing, nothing)

I got nothing

Smoking Kills, Kills Softly

Marlboro is the largest selling brand of cigarettes in the world. It is made by Philip Morris USA (a branch of Altria) within the US, and by Philip Morris International (now separate from Altria) outside the US. It is famous for its billboard advertisements, magazine ads of the Marlboro Man and its long associated history in the sponsorship of motorsport. Richmond, Virginia is the location of the largest Marlboro cigarette manufacturing plant.

Philip Morris launched the Marlboro brand in 1924 as a woman's cigarette, based on the slogan "Mild As May". In the 1920s, advertising for the cigarette was primarily based around how ladylike the cigarette was. To this end, the filter had a printed red band around it to hide lipstick stains, calling it "Beauty Tips to Keep the Paper from Your Lips".

Smoking damage

There are hundreds of examples and volumes of research showing how cigarette smoking damages the body. For example, UK studies show that smokers in their 30s and 40s are five times more likely to have a heart attack than non-smokers. Smoking contributes to coronary artery disease (atherosclerosis or hardening of the arteries) where the heart’s blood supply becomes narrowed or blocked, starving the heart muscle of vital nutrients and oxygen, resulting in a heart attack. As a result smokers have a greatly increased risk of needing complex and risky heart bypass surgery. Smoking also increases the risk of having a stroke, because of damage to the heart and arteries to the brain. If you smoke for a lifetime, there is a 50 per cent chance that your eventual death will be smoking-related - half of all these deaths will be in middle age.
 
 Are you having a terrible habit of smoking? So what I am. At first you just trying to know how taste of a bar of cigarette, and then it kills you softly. And the next question is..... Why the bad habits is fun? Yes, it is. And it will destroying your body parts one by one. So, wanna continue that? Me..... Yes. And you?

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wikipedia.

cry songs

There's a few songs who makes me wanna cry this last month

and two the most(s), I've shared above this.....

IT WILL RAIN

If you ever leave me, baby, 

 Leave some morphine at my door  

Cause it would take a whole lot of medication  

To realize what we used to have,  

We don't have it anymore.

 
There's no religion that could save me 

No matter how long my knees are on the floor, oh  

So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm making  

To keep you by my side  

And keep you from walking out the door.

 
Cause there'll be no sunlight if I lose you, baby  

There'll be no clear skies if I lose you, baby  

Just like the clouds, my eyes will do the same if you walk away  

Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain

 
I'll never be your mother's favorite ah ,

Your daddy can't even look me in the eye  

Oooh if I were in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing  

Saying there goes my little girl walking with that troublesome guy

 
But they're just afraid of something they can't understand  

Oooh well little darling watch me change their minds  

Yeah for you I'll try, I'll try, I'll try, I'll try  

I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding  

If that'll make it right

 
Cause there'll be no sunlight if I lose you, baby  

There'll be no clear skies if I lose you, baby  

Just like the clouds, my eyes will do the same if you walk away  

Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain

 
Ooooh Don't just say goodbye, don't just say, goodbye  

I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding  

If that'll make it right

 
Cause there'll be no sunlight if I lose you, baby 

There'll be no clear skies if I lose you, baby  

Just like the clouds, my eyes will do the same if you walk away  

Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain, rain...

Copied from MetroLyrics.com

My Little Grown Brother

Boy, you have grown up.
From the little brother I met sitting alone with a silence,
Till I see you laughed with the boys and smoke in hand.
I've been with you and keep you from the outside world.

Boy, you changed a lot.
There's many different between us now.
You aren't my little brother anymore.
You've grown, into someone who I don't recognize.

Maybe I'm already done with your mom's said;
"Girl, I leave my little boy to, please keep him from the world I don't know"
And maybe, you don't need a baby sitter or baby's sister.
So, should I leave?

I miss the old, I miss our togetherness.
May I get it back? May I repeat it once again?

GRENADE - BRUNO MARS

Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live
Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give
Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open, why were they open?


Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is


I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya


I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same


No, no, no, no


Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you're from
Mad women, bad women, that's just what you are, yeah
You'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car
{ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/b/bruno-mars-lyrics/grenade-lyrics.html }


Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is


I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya


I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for ya, baby
But you won't do the same


If my body was on fire
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby


But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya


I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same


No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you never do the same

No, no, no, no

Trip to the TOL

Siang itu, gue lupa tanggal berapa. Pulanglah gue dengan via bus TransJakarta (sorry sebut merk). Biasanya jalur yang gue tempuh adalah UNJ - Dukuh Atas - Kuningan - Slipi atau UNJ - Dukuh Atas - Semanggi - Slipi. Kali ini gue coba jalur baru; CAWANG.

Transitlah gue di Pramuka BPKP naik bus koridor Tanjung Priok - PGC. Karena baru pertama kali dan cuma modal liat peta di bus, gue coba tanya sama mas-mas yang jaga halte.
"Mas, kalo mau ke arah grogol atau slipi turun dimana?"
Mas nya jawab, "turun di cawang soetoyo aja"

Terus gue naek bus yang dia bilang tadi, turunlah di Cawang Soetoyo. Ada bus dateng, pas pintu kebuka mas-mas lain di dalemnya bilang "Pinang Ranti - Pluit" dan langsunglah gue naik. Setelah ngobrol sama mas-masnya dan bilang tujuan gue ke Slipi, dia bilang "nanti lewat Slipi kok tapi ke Pinang Ranti dulu"
*jleb* muncul rasa ngeri nyasar. Tapi it's okay lah gue jalan-jalan dulu ke daerah ujung-ujung Jakarta Timur. Sampailah di terminal terakhir, mas nya bilang lagi "lewat sini aja, kalo sana nanti bayar lagi" sembari ngarahin gue naik lewat pintu petugas. 10 menit kemudian bus nya jalan. "Alhamdulillah pulang juga gue" dalem hati.
Sambil liat-liat jalan, kok tiba-tiba tujuan melencong. Kemana ini? Apa gue mau diculik?? Mikir sekali lagi dengan otak jernih hati tenang pantat pegel, yang ada ngabisin beras kalo gue diculik.

And then..... loh loh, bus Trans kok masuk tol?? Sumpah ini kalo gue bawa kamera gue foto ini. Sayang esia gue ngga berkamera. Yaiyalah yakali canggih banget layarnya aja monokrom.

Sempet gue fikir kalo bus ini ternyata bus khusus Jakarta - Bekasi, tapi apa iya? Lalu..... tembuslah pada jalan diluar tol. Hal yang pertama gue cari adalah separator busway untuk meyakini kalo gue ada di Jakarta, karena ngga mungkin gue nyari dimana Monas, kejauhan pemirsa. Alhamdulillah gue muncul di Cawang Ciliwung. What a amazing trip ya yang harusnya gue dari kampus ke NN itu paing lambat 2 jam, sekarang totally 3 jam 20 menit tanpa macet. Thanks for a confussing trip, TransJakarta.

HAPPY 3rd BIRTHDAY REVERANCE FAMILY

FIRST CELEBRATION
ON TUESDAY, FEBRUARY 7th 2012

She

She felt so lonely.
She felt so empty.
She needs to be protected.
She needs to be filled.

She's unconfident.
She deserves to be loved.
And she needs to be loved.
But she doesn't believe.

She's between in two choice.
In the middle of pain and scars in past.
Where is her heart will goes?
Where is she belongs to?